Sigh. Give in or give up? Wanted to give in, yet i couldnt stand the pain. Think of giving up, but dont wanna lose it. What am i suppose to do then? I cant possibly wait for time to heal everything. Everyday's like a total disaster to me. -.- Mentally. Couldnt ease the pain at all. Having flashbacks every single minute. What to do? Felt like scraping every bits of memories i had off my mind. Go through thorough brain washing. Then i would have clear state of mind. Just like a new brain being planted in my head. Know nothing about pain. Forget about every single thing in my life and everyone except my family. How great would it be? At least i dont need to suffer in pain right now. I would forget all my friends and start afresh. I wouldnt trust people that easily ever again. And that would cause me no trouble.. No trouble at all!